had a wild night last night.

went out with a fren and his group of frens, i dont know what spurred me to say i'll go, coz i dont like hanging out with a group of people where i only know one person. well after the first half hour, when the drinks came, everyone loosened up. like a group of 20 and 4 bottles of liquor.

i actually could guess that by asking me out for drinks, he wanted something at the end of the night. thats why i was so wary, really didnt want to go in. but he paid for my entrance, and i didnt pay a single cent for liquor either. so i had no choice but to go in loh. anyway, i found one smart way to divert a guy's attn. im a devil when it comes to mixing the drinks for the guys, i poured more than 2/3 of chivas into a cup for him. with a miserable pathetic amount of mixer and then one of his frens poured some jim beam on top of that. and its one of the many cups for the night.

it got him damn blardy high (i was damn high myself). so of course, his hands start wandering, and his other guy frens also loosened up and chatted with me, sat down next to me etc. i admit i sound like a bimbo. but i like the attention =)

so at the end of the night, we went somewhere (shall not even post that up, sounds blardy humiliating even to me and my past exploits). but thankfully he had to much to drink and couldnt *ahem*. hee heee... thats why i said, to divert unwanted attention, get the guy damn freakin drunk. like what those guys said, a girl feed up drinks, u cannot dont drink right. esp when i empty my glass, they DEFINITELY have to empty theirs.



so now i need to go dig up that old post on how to remove lovebites instantaneously.



anyway, during the evening. (rather, night. we only started drinking after midnight, close to 1am). i realised that the way he acts with his frens really reminds me of -him-. maybe its soccer people, but it made me miss him last night.

anyway, i shall do a post again soon. wanted to wait til i loaded some pics b4 i blogged, but i wanted to tell this story haha. so hopefully i wont be so lazy and my next post will have pics in it liaoz. and i think this post sounds damn disjointed. my flow of thoughts are all jumbled up, partly coz of lack of sleep and partly coz i have a freakin headache cum hangover. keep thinking of last night, makes me cringe but also brings a smile to my face sometimes. weird huh.

feeling super grouchy. last night he dropped a news bomb, ok not really a bomb lah but i took it badly but hiding it. his brother proposed to the gf and his sis is preggers.

it jus made me start thinking about MY future. like is he ever gonna propose anytime soon? and esp the part about his sis... she wasnt even intending to have a kid yet. brought out the fear and paranoia in me that i might never have kids esp since my body is prob screwed up by the prev 2 operations. so sometimes i feel that if im never gonna be able to have kids, i might as well smoke and drink as and when i want to correct?

my only consolation is that at this pt, i can still drink as much as i want. like friday night's drinking session, skipped dinner with colleagues coz i didnt feel like entertaining them. so went out for pre-bday drinks with hs, i like the tray packed with shots, chain-smoking an entire pack betw the 2 of us kinda shit. i like having some of the cute guys at the roadshow outside my office talk to me, esp the cute one. hahaha.... any of u from branch reading this, dun rub it in manz.

so yeah.... would anyone be able to tell me that if i've had 2 ops previously, does it still affect me having kids in future?